Wednesday, November 28, 2007

my lines and life

I should add George Herbert to my collection of favorite poets.

I came across this one the other day. Don't remember when I first read it, but it's so good it can make me cry.


The Collar

I STRUCK the board, and cry’d, No more;
I will abroad.
What? shall I ever sigh and pine?
My lines and life are free; fr
ee as the rode,
Loose as the winde, as large as store.
Shall I be still in suit?
Have I no harvest but a thorn
To let me bloud, and not restore
What I have lost with cordiall fruit?
Sure there was wine,
Before my sighs did drie it: there was corn
Before my tears did drown it.
Is the yeare onely lost to me?
Have I no bayes to crown it?
No flowers, no garlands gay? all blasted?
All wasted?
Not so, my heart: but there is fruit,
And thou hast hands.
Recover all thy sigh-blown age
On double pleasures: leave thy cold dispute
Of what is fit, and not forsake thy cage,
Thy rope of sands,
Which pettie thoughts have made, and made to thee
Good cable, to enforce and draw,
And be thy law,
While thou didst wink and wouldst not see.
Away; take heed:
I will abroad.
Call in thy deaths head there: tie up thy fears.
He that forbears
To suit and serve his need,
Deserves his load.
But as I rav’d and grew more fierce and wilde,
At every word,
Methought I heard one calling, Childe:
And I reply’d, My Lord.

Sunday, November 18, 2007

shenanigous

(possessing or displaying shenanigans)


Brent calls it "brilliant beyond reason."

you must see http://www.peepresearch.org/index.html .

the best of the peep research at this link.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

this time next week

i'll be landing in newark


Hurray for Thanksgiving break.

right now, i'm thankful for Tuesday night dinners which have been a blessing in more ways that we expected:

- time to catch up with friends in good conversation
- a chance to get together with roommates (usually while cleaning up=)
- being pushed to learn to cook
- learning to cook for large crowds
- then feeling like I could cook at other times for people in need
- a good home-cooked meal at least once a week
- leftovers for the rest of the week
- a place to invite new people
- plus opportunity to invite neighbors
- midweek fellowship & fun
- freedom and joy in giving and hospitality
- something to make me leave work on Tuesday.


so long.

Saturday, November 10, 2007

GA to MA

time to move north



We began driving north on Friday, July 6. I had a full few days in Atlanta, hanging out with friends, getting the car tuned and oiled and packed. Packing the car this time included using Courtney's new bike rack and fixing both our bikes to the back of my Hyundai. I was dubious of their security, and developed a habit of watching them in the rear view mirror for the next month, a habit which I still found myself doing when I entered the highway in September, long after the roadtrip.

We began our caravan from Stephanie's house, again with me and one kid in my backseat, and the Polak Volvo full to the brim. We drove to Durham the first day, spending a night with family. On Saturday we took the drive to DC to hang with the Zubas. And we spent a good two nights there, happy to rest from driving for a time. I think we were all worn out and perhaps battling a little sickness. I recall getting a migraine which put me under for a while. On Monday we continued to NJ (where I took the picture of the neat sign i've passed a million times) where I would rest for travels for long enough to empty the car (and mother paid for it to get really cleaned) and hang with family. (With Daniel and Anna, reading old favorite picture books: Caps for Sale and Even for a Mouse. Mark, ever adorable; getting a haircut with mom and dad.)












On Thursday, Courtney flew up to Newark and our adventures in New England began. I picked her up from the airport. After lunch and tea at home, we reloaded the bikes and said goodbye to family. We drove to Boston.

Our drive there was not that exciting, except when we passed a sign that said Bear Mountain, and we played Dylan's talkin' song (have a picnic in my bathroom) [Note also "Palisades": every time I go back north I see something else that is from a B. Joel or Springsteen song that I hadn't noticed before: "I saw the Empire State laid low; life went on beyond the Palisades..."], and when we got stuck in traffic in Hartford and made a shortcut through the surprisingly pleasant little city. (I guess surprising to us because we had no idea about it. I was sorry later to learn that we missed a visit to Mark Twain's manse.)

We arrived in Boston (Cambridge to be more specific) listening to "Driving in MAAA-ssachusetts...what the hell is a rotary" on the CarTalk cd (which I temporarily stole from the Polaks) when I came across a rotary and suddenly the words took on a new dimension of meaning. Okay, I really didn't know what the darn sign meant when it said "rotary ahead," and even if I did realize that this was a MA term for traffic circle it really wouldn't have helped. Besides, I wouldn't call this a traffic circle per se: a mass intersection of 6 streets, a vague blob probably worth three lanes with no lines on the road. So, granted I didn't really know what to do. So, I was a bit timid. So, the car behind me didn't like that. So, they honked. So, Courtney and I laughed really hard, and turned up the song.

In Boston, we were very thankful to get to stay with a friend of Courtney's. We went out to Cambridge that evening and got some dinner. We walked around Hahvahd Square and saw the law office of Dewey Cheetam & Howe. And we walked around Harvard's campus too. It was very nice. I think we felt a bit jealous.












The next day: Boston.

(!)

I had a good week. I can hardly believe I'm writing that, but it's Friday evening, and it was a good week.

October was so hard, so busy and difficult, that I felt despairing of this year. But things took a turn in November (at least I do hope it's a trend) and I believe I'm doing better.

This week I enjoyed my students, and I enjoyed teaching. I FINISHED giving standardized testing. We started the Civil War, and I have this unit pretty well laid out, so I'm not stressed. I introduced our next big project: a paper on the Civil War and the kids are excited about it. (!) And we're reading Huck Finn, and I love Huck.

I'm feeling more on my game now, and I must say that I'm pretty sure a primary reason for this is that I have found the source of my allergies. And eliminated them. (well, they're not all gone, but at least I can do away with the major problem now) I had really bad allergies most of October, and I'm sure some of it was fall pollen or whatever plagues us. But as it got colder (and I got out my sleeping bag rather than a blanket) I began to have more problems. Pretty soon I woke up with a swollen eye each morning, and I was pretty miserable.

The situation didn't clear until I left Atlanta...and actually spent three nights away from home. Then I was determined the problem was in my room.

So I spent a night on the couch with my sleeping bag. Problem not solved.

So Courtney said do you think you're allergic to down. Oh no, of course not. I've had a down pillow for nearly my whole life.


So, then I proceeded with my life until suddenly I remembered something. And it all came together. (ok, this is kind of embarrassing, so don't laugh at me. i really am a good scientist and had good reason to be convinced my allergies were confined to dust)

i have, as i said, used this particular floofy pillow for a long time. it's been a favorite. then (right about the time i developed a cat allergy probably) i began to be allergic to this pillow. i'm allergic to dust pretty bad, so when i was having bad allergies, i had cleaned everything else in my room and managed to narrow the problem down to my pillow. (see i am good with the scientific method) i was busy learning about my nasty dust allergy, and i learned that dust mites (which are very icky little bugs, especially blown up at 100x their size in a photograph) can be killed if frozen. so, i proceeded to periodically freeze my pillow. mother would open the freezer in the basement, and come up asking: so, um, what is that big white thing in in the freezer? ah yes. one night around christmas time i put it outside all night in the freezing wind. that did it i thought. then mother gave me for christmas a special allergen-free pillow cover. brilliant. no more dust gets in and the dead dust mites in there can just forget about it. it was like a charm: i and the pillow were happy again. ok, so obviously you can tell where this is going. that lovely pillow was down, and it wasn't really so full of dust mites. it just took me a really long time to figure it out.

i'm allergic to geese.

*sigh*

donne

I was thinking of this poem earlier.
It's a favorite.
I think this is the first poem that I ever really liked, making me decide that I liked poetry.

Batter my heart, three-person'd God, for you
As yet but knock, breathe, shine, and seek to mend;
That I may rise and stand, o'erthrow me, and bend
Your force to break, blow, burn, and make me new.
I, like an usurp'd town to another due,
Labor to admit you, but oh, to no end;
Reason, your viceroy in me, me should defend,
But is captiv'd, and proves weak or untrue.
Yet dearly I love you, and would be lov'd fain,
But am betroth'd unto your enemy;
Divorce me, untie or break that knot again,
Take me to you, imprison me, for I,
Except you enthrall me, never shall be free,
Nor ever chaste, except you ravish me.

John Donne

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Texas pt 4

I guess it is time for another installment. Last year I completed the summer-trip-posts in April, so I could still beat my time...

Back in Texas...in July:

Friday evening, when it was cooling down in the Basin where we had some shade, we managed to get out of the chairs and cook dinner. We couldn't have a campfire in the desert of course, but we still managed to do the camping essential:











Mark seemed especially happy.
Too bad there are no showers there...On Saturday we went to the southeast corner of the park and this time the kids were awake and got to see the Rio Grande. Daniel and Anna found it fun tossing in dirt to see it splash in the muddy river. Mark thought it would be fun too, and tossed in his orange cup. I got a muddy sandal rescuing it.









We were hot and drowsy, so we had a snack under tall cottonwoods that had been planted by those who attempted to farm here. We found of respite from the oppressive sun.
And the kids played in the dirt. Elizabeth was a cool mom to let them.





























Mark got sufficiently dirty. He was quite delighted.
Back in the car, he examines his knee-dirt closely.

Daniel and Anna were often most cheerful in the car











...where we had air conditioning. And indeed, we saw much of the park from inside the comfort of the rented minivan. We had good views: While finding a place to picnic lunch, Elizabeth and I caught a glimpse of something that we really think might have been a mountain lion. Then we took a walk on a trail that passed through a variety of ecosystems. We saw water, and desert, and great views of the Rio Grande.




















Saturday evening was a highlight. After dinner we saw javalina at our campground. They were just grazing by the bathrooms. We learned all about javalina: they were the new animal for us at Big Bend. They aren't pigs! (There was a silly book at the NPS center called: Don't Call Me a Pig that taught us all.) They look a like like a p** though, because they have a snout and are about the same size. But they don't have a tail. And they eat cacti.
Mark learned about the javalinas. He could say something that sounded a bit like "a-na-nina." I wonder if he still remembers that word.

We took at walk to see the sunset (and saw some more wild life along the way) and we discovered how nice it is to hike when the sun isn't beating down on us!
After some photos at the sunset we went to a ranger talk on cacti. We learned a lot, and the kids handled it well, even though it was getting late. I learned a lot about cacti, but regret that it was our last evening, so we didn't have any more time to explore for those cacti...so basically I forgot most of it. I learned that octillo is not a cactus. And I learned that you can eat the red balls on top of some prickly pear. Those are fruit. That's about it. I also remember learning about thefts: a lot of people sneak out rare plants from Big Bend- they catch them all the time. I can't think what you call that crime. I can't believe people would do that.

The next morning, we headed home.
Let's see what I can recount.

We left Sunday morning and drove to Dallas. We arrived at a friend's house very late and put the kids to bed. The drive back was difficult. Anna was having trouble understanding the geography of Texas and Dallas. I'm pretty sure she was convinced that Texas was in Dallas, and she didn't understand when we said we're not in Dallas yet, because she insisted that we never had left Dallas! I really didn't understand why she felt it profitable to argue geography with three adults when obviously she hadn't been to school yet. But that sort of logic doesn't really register with four year olds I guess (I learned a lot about kids...) and Elizabeth was very patient and let Anna get upset without arguing back.

Monday morning was our day of departure: it was stressful. We woke up rested and cleaned and had breakfast. Then we had to load the two cars with all the possessions of the Polak family (minus some books that were shipped to NJ). We finished around noon maybe? I forget. In the end we had my car packed, the Volvo wagon packed with its roof loaded and my green tarp over to protect it from rain (which we did have; the tarp was useful until about Alabama when I took this photo). The rented minivan was full of belongings to return to friends throughout the state of Dallas. And that meant goodbyes too. We began with borrowed camping equipment from a fire-fighter friend. And then a last lunch with Milan's dad. Drop off books that public library. And finally goodbyes to their dear friends.

We left Dallas (which actually we know is a city in Texas) probably around 5, in the rain. We drove till we did actually leave Texas. Just inside Louisiana the Polaks were ready to stop for the night. It was an interesting night what with one hotel room, a sister, a brother-in-law, two nephews and one niece. I believe experiences like that are ones that you treasure as "remember when" most of all. Elizabeth and Milan put Mark on the bed between them: not sure they got much sleep. I slept with Daniel crowding my pillow and Anna at our feet. This was most amusing. A few times I had to get up and move Daniel off my pillow, and then he would pick up and dramatically plop down on top of me again. sheesh. it was kind of funny. We splurged on a nice warm breakfast at ihop that morning, and then headed for B-ham.

The two older kids were quite happy taking turns in my back seat. Mark gave me a big smile whenever we stopped to rest. We had lunch in Vicksburg at a park by the River. It was hot, and there were red ants that bit hard. We got a nice Polak family picture though, documenting the span of years they were in Dallas: on the way to Dallas they took the same picture, but the kids were three years younger, and baby Mark was not yet.

That night we stayed with friends in Birmingham and on July fourth I headed home for two nights rest in my own bed. Then the journey north would begin.